Baffled at how you could be so foolish to ignore the blatant red flags that, ceased to exist. It’s possible that you had little niggles and inklings. It’s ages since I’ve shown my face and have had lots of new followers, so hello! How do you begin to process, heal and move forward when your partner blindsides you with a breakup? I fell for you for your ability to see me as a whole person, in spite of my flaws. What makes us or someone else weak or messing up? There’s a difference between loving someone being in love with someone and while he may love you, he may not be IN love with you. I’ve heard from so many people who were shocked by their discomfort with saying no *even when* it came to the matter of their health and comfort levels. It’s difficult enough when you sense or know that the end is nigh for your relationship. The only possible sign was that my boyfriend was under an unhealthy amount of pressure at his job. Everything was so easy. It could be that in our pursuit of a goal, we’ve lost connection to other things that matter because we’re blinded by who we think we’ll be when we get what we want. With the blindside, one stunned person is left suddenly alone in trying to figure out what happened. Reader Question: What does it mean when a man says ‘I can’t give you want you want’? Thankfully, you get life experiences and lessons from good ole Professor Life that show you what you couldn't see before. Breakups are hard, but they're even harder when you are completely blindsided by it. Each day I didn’t reach out I was proud of myself. Perhaps you didn’t know how distraught I was in that moment, or perhaps you were trying to protect me, I don’t really know. We don't have to put our self-esteem on the chopping block or give ourselves up to make others or even ourselves happy. So one night I asked to get a drink to ask him how I can be a better partner and help him through it. Recognising where I've demanded too much of myself has allowed me to extend self-compassion to my younger self, to learn to take care of me, and to make way for decent experiences going forward because I'm willing to trust myself and listen to my body. What might experience as a by-product of that even in the midst of uncertainty? A blindsided breakup can be difficult. You’ve gotta feel to heal. Don’t They Care About Me? You, too, will get over your ex. Guess what though? And then we let fear take over if we don’t know, immediately blocking us from getting grounded. I remember you saying because of your last relationship that you would never have the heart to cheat on someone. My podcast The Baggage Reclaim Sessions has over 200 episodes and 1.8 million + downloads, and I also host a Shortcast (short version of it) on @blinkist A few fun facts: 1. Blindsiding someone with a breakup is rarely a classy move, but sometimes, it feels like the only way out of a relationship that just isn’t working. If we’re not intentional about factoring us into our actions and choices, we will suffer the effects of living our life as if we exist solely for the consumption of others. Also to make issues more serious, their … Part of their stonewalling might be, on some level, about getting attention and feeling powerful. I was too emotional. It may be time to have a conversation with your partner. But it feels pretty fucking great to be back on solid ground again. They’re only human, of course, but don’t dismiss what you’ve experienced. Then I got blindsided by a breakup. © 2005-2021 BAGGAGE RECLAIM. We don’t ‘see’ them and what they’re going through because of how we’ve judged their situation or imagined them to be. When you're blindsided by a breakup, it's often tempting to try and fix whatever your partner thinks is wrong with the relationship. #baggagereclaim #lonelinessquotes #loneliness #lonelinessquotes #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #recoveringperfectionist #recoveringpeoplepleaser #peoplepleasing #peoplepleasers #expressyourself #emotionalintelligence ... A big theme of my forties has been slowing down and honouring my bandwidth. Given that in adulthood, we choose our family, we might be someone’s chosen person. I was left with so much anger, so much pain, so many questions I’d never get an answer to, and the worst part is I felt like he just got away with it. 201: Who were you ‘getting to know’ over those texts? Here’s what I know for sure about people who deal you a ‘blindsided breakup’: It’s not the case that they just woke up that day and decided to do it. Sometimes we have unrealistic expectations of our intuition as if to say we should 100% know what it means immediately. Wishing you a happy new year. Even a bit of empathy and compassion about estrangement, especially given 1) the pandemic and 2) this time of year which triggers anxiety, shame and loneliness for a lot of people, could go a long way. I expressed how I want our relationship to take stress away, not add to it. Please, take care of you. I learned them to cope and survive, but now I have to let them go to thrive. Just the week before, he was writing “I love you” in the condensation on the kitchen window and talking about how excited he was to marry her. And it makes sense because I was raised this way. Welcome to 2021. In my promise to be a bit more shouty about things I’m up to, here’s a little something I’ve been working on over the last few months Blinkist, the app that creates short versions of bestselling non-fiction reads has launched Shortcasts, short versions of, yep, podcasts. Like a lot of recovering people-pleasers and perfectionists, asking for help isn't my strong suit. They think they're outwitting everyone and that they can bully any ’detractors’ into submission. Thanks to the shenanigans of 2020, there’s already a lot of pressure on this year. It comes from being an over-responsible kid who thought that not appearing ’weak’ or like I had ’too many needs’ was my j.o.b. I enjoyed making every episode, but it took making eighty or so to zone in on how I wanted to do things. Last week, my podcast, The Baggage Reclaim Sessions, reached the two hundred episodes milestone It was my husband, Em, who suggested I start one, and after a year of faffing about due to, well, perfectionism and overthinking, I finally launched. And it makes sense because I was raised this way. I’m not ashamed of it because I have no doubt that I will come back from this pain twice as strong. Perhaps unintentionally, but that doesn’t make it better. And then the second shit storm hit, and I got laid off. It’s like saying ‘I’m willing to pay attention to myself even though I don’t know always know what my gut feelings mean because I value and trust myself.’ In turn, we get to understand the language of our gut feelings so that we don’t have to assume the worst or dismiss ourselves. Last week, my podcast, The Baggage Reclaim Sessions, reached the two hundred episodes milestone It was my husband, Em, who suggested I start one, and after a year of faffing about due to, well, perfectionism and overthinking, I finally launched. We are our primary caregiver once we become adults, so we have to parent and nurture those younger, neglected parts of ourselves by gradually learning to meet our needs. I dance pretty much every day. Take care of you. (Probably a mistake). It may be time to have a conversation with your partner. Some — and I know this might sound downright absurd — will later acknowledge that it was a crappy thing to do and even that some things they said weren’t true, but then say that there’s no point in further discussions or trying to resolve things because they did this. Whenyou meet, try not to start blaming and accusing, Blame games never end well.Also, do not avoid the person right after the breakup, maybe you are all theyhave. It’s these assumptions and judgments that stop us from humanising ourselves and others. When you have no warning, it is incredibly traumatic. Welcome to 2021. When it comes to knowing if it's the right time to break up with someone, we tend to look for big, dramatic signs. Today people involved in the relationship have the choice of breaking up by instant messages, voice mails, emails, facebook status and loads of other ways. Or, they say they’ll talk with you and then keep cancelling. How to Get Over Being Blindsided by a Breakup Every breakup has a story. But opting out of some of these cookies may have an effect on your browsing experience. “Have some empathy for yourself—it’s easy to blame yourself for a break up, especially a sudden one that blindsides you. Just like there was a reason for the breakup -- there was a reason for the relationship. that being ‘good’ and striving to be ‘perfect’ is the route to not only getting what you want but also being *worthy* of it. So we need to check in with ourselves and loved ones, especially the ones who tend to always be helping, perfect or pleasing, or who pride themselves on being the life and soul. Necessary cookies are absolutely essential for the website to function properly. What makes us or someone else weak or messing up? I know that you are capable of loving, and being the person who you were with me. Yes, it often means that you go through a phase of wondering if you're the crazy one or the effects of them trying to destroy you, but rest assured: they always fall eventually because they overplay their hand. More peace and joy, for sure. The night we broke up you promised me that should I ever need you as a friend that you would be there. The sooner you find it, the sooner you bounce back. I decided to write a calm, yet strongly worded e-mail to get my side of this off my chest for good. (I wrote that sentence before I noticed the pun and you know what I’m gonna keep it. And if you're not, you can do a free 7-day trial via the link in my bio. And to make matters worse, their reasons for breaking up … His response was the text equivalent of the “air jerk-off” gesture. I met him because of it. Every last thing we do as humans is about trying to meet our emotional needs. Others know what is and isn't permissible when you communicate it. They give the veneer of calm, happiness and a shared future while secretly wrestling with doubts, fears, anger and even grievances. Relationship break up can be of different types and can also happen for a variety of reasons. Curiosity goes a long way with helping you to learn to listen to yourself. #baggagereclaim #goodintentions #healthyboundaries #boundaries #gaslighting #gaslightingawareness #takeresponsibility #valuesmatter #recoveringpeoplepleaser ... Like a lot of recovering people-pleasers and perfectionists, asking for help isn't my strong suit. I’d been through many a breakup before, but what really shook me to the core about this one was how suddenly everything ended. Yes, it often means that you go through a phase of wondering if you're the crazy one or the effects of them trying to destroy you, but rest assured: they always fall eventually because they overplay their hand. So, of course, we have things that we desire and aspire to, but we can do it from a place of already being enough. It's not a dirty word! Blindsided by a break up. 3. Thanks to the shenanigans of 2020, there’s already a lot of pressure on this year. I, like so many of us, have been conditioned, socialised, or as we’d say back home in Ireland, had it bred into me (!!) by NATALIE | Mar 6, 2020 | Boundaried Breakups. It’s a way of letting trusted loved ones in, humanising you, and also healing your neglected younger self. I hate how much I still miss him. It's entirely too easy to forget why the relationship ended and remember why it started. You’ll end up feeling as if you’re losing your dignity and chasing them down. They know they are feeling something in regards to the relationship. He broke up with you because he didn’t want to be with you. Born in England, I was primarily raised in Dublin, Ireland (I still call it home even though I've been back in England for almost 20 years), and have Jamaican Chinese heritage. “The Blindside” rips the rug that told you “you’d never have to worry about fear of commitment” right out from underneath you. And to make matters worse, his reasons for breaking up seem so out of left field and don't make any sense. There’s a ‘why’ in everything that we do, and knowing why we’re doing something, and so being aware of hidden motivations or competing fears keeps us honest and ensures, not just that we enjoy more successful outcomes but that we don’t hurt others and then cling to our ‘good intentions’ instead of taking responsibility. I had to be willing to make those episodes first, though, and listen. So many of us have learned to keep up a front. I’d been through many a breakup before, but what really shook me to the core about this one was how suddenly everything ended. When you fail to pick up any signs that your partner was unhappy in the relationship and he suddenly ends it, you are going to feel like you have been blindsided by a breakup. Why Do They Keep Having Sex With Me If They’re Not Interested Or Don’t Want The Relationship I Want? Men are socialized to repress their emotions. Blindsided Relationship Breakup by HelpeeDeck(m): 4:16pm On Sep 02, 2015 Relationship break up can be of different types and can also happen for a variety of reasons. What we all fall into the trap of doing at one time or another is trying to get people in our present to fill old voids by meeting unmet needs from our past, particularly from childhood. But if we register that we picked up *something*, we then become open to receiving further intel. If you want to change your relationship with anxiety, check out my short audio course, The Anxiety Sessions—link in bio. There’s a ‘why’ in everything that we do, and knowing why we’re doing something, and so being aware of hidden motivations or competing fears keeps us honest and ensures, not just that we enjoy more successful outcomes but that we don’t hurt others and then cling to our ‘good intentions’ instead of taking responsibility. Unfortunately, he forgot to mention that he’d already begun a new relationship. This is. Like everything was picture perfect up until that day or even week. But I was in such an emotionally panicked state I didn’t care. I spent the ensuing weeks in a confused haze, alternating between wallowing in my self-pity and crying until I looked like Charlize Theron in Monster, and trying my best to suppress any hint of distress in public. Perhaps it’s because you’ve both tried to work through issues unsuccessfully. Yes, it will take time. So for anyone who is struggling with heartbreak, I hope this can be helpful. This breakup pulled me into the purgatory of life. This website uses cookies to improve your experience while you navigate through the website. I could see he didn’t want to make the choice he was making, and what hurt the most was that it didn’t stop him. The day I realised that the likes of my people-pleasing and perfectionism are driven by anxiety about *something*, a light bulb went on for me. Now, when these habits show up, I see them as calls to notice what I’m feeling and what I really need so that I can take care of me and show UP instead of hiding in these habits that have kept me company for so long. Fear, resentment, guilt, anxiety, whatever it may be. You’ve been dating someone special for several weeks. This is as much a note to self as it is a public service announcement. Something has caused us to become disconnected. Repressed ones pile up and ultimately drain you. I’ve heard from so many people who were shocked by their discomfort with saying no *even when* it came to the matter of their health and comfort levels. I thought you meant that. Take care. Felt feelings feel so much better than repressed ones. If you were hit with a barrage of complaints where it was the first you were hearing of them, this is someone who’s carried silent rage in the relationship. save over 30% on BREAK THE CYCLE OF EMOTIONAL UNAVAILABILITY, the online course, You Can’t Erase An Ex From Your Mind…But You Can Reduce Their Power AND Keep Pushing Forward, Coping With and Moving On After a Breakup Commandment 10: Thou must close the door and move forward. Sometimes we put our hand back into the proverbial fire because we’re trying to be ‘nice’ or ‘giving’. Over the years, I've really stretched into admitting where I'm struggling and asking for help because it's part of intimacy. Most breakups come after a series of conversations. Unbeknownst to you, they were keeping a tally of offences. What if, in fact, our only resolution this year was to love ourselves more? One of the things that the pandemic has brought into sharp focus is our relationship with our boundaries. Now, when these habits show up, I see them as calls to notice what I’m feeling and what I really need so that I can take care of me and show UP instead of hiding in these habits that have kept me company for so long. I didn’t want him to feel attacked or angry, just something that he’d read while sitting in mesh shorts on the couch and just go “Fuck.”. A UCLA study reveals that spending time with close friends causes the brain to release natural opioids, which are like the painkillers found in opium. Have you been blindsided with a breakup? Just some generic shit you’d say to an acquaintance, that he probably typed while pooping. Five years on, including a year’s break in between after losing my father and feeling a bit lost between that and turning forty, almost 1.8 million downloads, and having accompanied people’s bath and bed times, gym sessions, walks, runs, hikes, mountain climbing (literally and figuratively), chill sessions and so much more, I found it fitting to celebrate with the person who kickstarted it. Or, they marked your cards on something that you genuinely believed that they were okay about. Allow me to introduce myself: The day I realised that the likes of my people-pleasing and perfectionism are driven by anxiety about *something*, a light bulb went on for me. They were sometimes prepared to make themselves and possibly others ill just so they didn't have to say no, and this realisation shook them up. Coping with a breakup can be incredibly challenging, but even more so when you are totally blindsided by it. 5. Felt feelings are ultimately energising because they connect you to yourself and what is. Much as we might feel that we’re A-OK because our family relationships are ‘great’, we have friends, partners, coworkers, etc., who might be struggling. My friend thought it was an out-of-the-blue breakup. All those unexpressed feelings end up getting turned inwards on you, affecting your emotional, mental, physical and spiritual health. They disappear so that you can’t engage with them, or they refuse to let you speak. We also use third-party cookies that help us analyze and understand how you use this website. It may take some time , but there's absolutely nothing wrong with that, and don't let anyone tell you otherwise. Even though I wasn't sure what I was doing or where it would lead, I did it anyway. I experience whatever emotion someone who is close to me is experiencing. Funny how, then, the more I people-pleased and engaged in perfectionism was the worse I felt. The likelihood is that even with a decent level of self-esteem, you will go through a period of wrestling with what-ifs and, yes, possibly giving you a hard time. By lost1, 5 years ago on Breaking up. How long you've been together isn't as important as the fact that you thought you were happy. Something I learned from the experience of starting from zero and running a marathon less than four months later as well as how wounded I've felt when things still haven't worked out how I think they should have given ’everything I did’ is that I never learned when enough was enough. When someone’s focus is on their intentions instead of our lived experience of their actions, they’re showing a lack of empathy and responsibility in that moment. You can’t force someone to talk who doesn’t want to or is hellbent on clinging to their narrative. A blindside breakup can only occur when one party of the relationship believes that they are on the same wavelength as the other party of the relationship. Relationship break up can be of different types and can also happen for a variety of reasons. What’s As Bad For You As Smoking 15 Cigarettes A Day? They require you to lie to yourself and to do things that aren’t in your best interests. Rather than him abruptly locking me out. 746 746. Curiosity goes a long way with helping you to learn to listen to yourself. When you say yes and no authentically, you get to say yes to the experiences, things, people and feelings that reflect the life you want to lead while filtering out what isn't a fit. My goal of sending this wasn’t to shame you or make you feel worse. But each day he didn’t it broke me more. We'll assume you're ok with this, but you can opt-out if you wish. And then we let fear take over if we don’t know, immediately blocking us from getting grounded. 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